It's been a few days of pure emotion....good and sad...
First the good emotions came yesterday on my birthday which I thought for sure would be a disaster..but truly was a wonderful day...just having so many remember and wish me a good one was a true blessing...but..most beautiful was having my family with me and just sharing it all with them...The gifts I require now are so different from what I wanted years back...to my kids they think it too simple but to me it fills up my heart...One day they will realize and understand ....
Today, I had a visit with my nephew..the only child left of my brother who died. For many reasons years have gone by without communication and he recently has express wanting to see us...be part of us again. I have great hesitation of him..I know he is young but yet old with much street wisdom and much brain washing....but we did pay him a visit as he wished, and it did go very well, we talked of all his troubles that he'd been in and that he was on the changing path, that he was leaving in a month to start college...proud we are but yet unsure of him...many times things are said but not fulfilled...just recently an act of manipulation was tried...but we didn't fall into it...so happier tunes are now sung...
But anyways...more on the visit...we all chatted of days of his dad when we were younger..of days when he was younger...he then pulled out a video of his dad and his brother and watching it made my heart feel so many different emotions...I seen two ppl I loved so much no longer with us..Which didn't have to be....but all we can do is go on..and this is what I hope my nephew truly wants...but..I can't help but feel there is a motive behind it all...But..one good thing for sure, there was an apology of a happening years ago that never mended and forgiveness was given..at least I hope...
With all these happenings these mixture of emotions...I felt myself going into this uncertain tail spin..an overwhelming bring down...but..by the grace of God it didn't take me over..instead..a realization of certain things came to light..and made my heart as ease..So thank you my Lord..my Jesus..
So I guess the only way to end this post is in a way that I like to ease my mind...with some songs of oldies that I love...and a mixture just like my emotions lol...
SammyJo
S - So many years have passed by
A - And so many ahead to still enjoy -
M - May God help you to live each one for His glory.
M - Many may be the times that
Y - You will struggle and wonder if it is indeed worth it all.
J - Just remember that God is always there -
O - Operating everything according to His plan for you and the world!!
I trust that you will find your way to peace and comfort today - many blessings for the years ahead!!!!
June
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Belated Birthday Hugggggggggggggggz,
Taylor
And I so loved your music~~~Glad your day was good for you.
Take care...Heide
Sorry, I missed your birthday. I do hope it was happy.
Keep smiling always....
Take care sweet Bella