Exhaling by SammyJo

Back back back again!!!..lol..

So before I start with some of the good things happening..I've got to say a few more not so good...awww....well..I failed miserably at my diet...Sad..lost a few lbs..and bang..back again..I just hate it..that's about the only thing I truly hate about myself..is this weight...it's my own fault..but still..not liking it...So funny..when I was younger..it was my height..being a female and 5'9 was not such a great thing..but....it doesn't bother me anymore..I guess I used to allow others to make me feel ashamed of it..but no longer..That's their problem..

Anyways...the good thing is..I'm not throwing in the towel yet...we've joined a health club..wooohooo!!!..."Treadmills...exercise classes...equipment to help all parts of the body...swimming pool...and woohoo..a whirlpool..yippee..My kids are totally excited about it...and shsss..I think I'm more excited than they are lol lol..

Oh did I mention...that summer has began..lol..yeap..school has ended..I don't know who's more excited about it..them or me lol lol..Last summer...we didn't do to much..it was like too hot..yea..I'm spoiled lol..but even though it's already starting to get that heat here again..we are planning things to do..to keep busy and try to get some weight off and keep it away ..I've enrolled my lil one in a day camp..we'll see how that works..and then there's the religion camp which even my middle son goes..he helps out with the lil ones..who knows..maybe this time I'll help..ummm..or maybe I'll just have a lil extra time to spend at the gym....lol..either way...we are going to get our butts out and about...

Last weekend..was so peaceful...we headed off to this little candy cottage..where there's so much yummies..it was a sweet lil place..we sat and ate ourselves some ice cream cones...(shss..you didn't see the word ice cream lollol)..it wasn't so much the ice cream but the time together..even hubby commented on how nice it was to do this together..and my middle son talked about it during the week..how much he enjoyed it...We just took some time to be a family..even just going browse at the store...The eldest son came home with his gal for a few days also and we spent time together..we had a BBQ...and talks..it was wonderful...And yes..it's the same girl that I surely didn't want around in the beginning lol..but..this old mommy has learned to keep her self..and besides..she is also trying..she seems to really want to be with my son..even when he broke up with her..she never gave up...so I'll just keep my eye on things and my faith in God...and in my son..

It amazes me how my changing... has made a change in my family...don't get me wrong...there are days we fall.....but..those days are fewer than before..and I also know it will be an ongoing thing for the rest of our lives...but..with God's help I will not give up..I've also realized that it can't just be a saying of change..or a change in attitude alone..it has to be a true change inside..in the heart ..in the soul...and that is what happening in me ...I know anger still resides inside...but..Love is there also..and smothering it up...Smile....

Well..there you go..a lil update on my life...guess..I'll go and play a lil more on the puter..and finish up with my cloths washing..and get the guys to cut that grass..I tried cutting it the other day..and wow..I've come to the conclusion that a 43 year old woman just can't do what she did when she was in her 20's lol lol..so I'll leave it to the guys...lol..

PS...Today is the start of hurricane season for us...so if you would please..include us in the prayers of protection..please don't think me selfish...for asking..for I know there are many who are suffering great disaster at this moment..and I do pray for them also...but I know prayer is strong when done by many...Thank you...and I wish you all a great day..and God Bless all...