Exhaling by SammyJo

Umm...which do I start with...the complaining or the good??...lets get the drag out the way...lol..so it maybe a long long long post lol lol....hahaha...

Well, lets start with the friend who is like totally drowning me....I've been knowing her now I guess about a year or so...it was a chat now and then about how much we hated our jobs..then when the jobs stopped we started hanging out walking together and shopping...it seemed really nice...but..as time went on..I realized she has some depression...seem to always be negative..which even though I have my own problems..I am still pretty much a positive person...so of course I was there to hear her out..and give words of encouragement..which seem to be the right thing to do being a friend...so I thought...

But...I've been seeing the manipulation she tries on me..In the beginning..my heart went out to her..She lives with her mom and is raising a daughter without the help of the ex...She has asked me to watch her daughter when she got a job...but..her mom is very cautious when it comes to her granddaughter around guys...if you understand what I mean...so..I having only boys in my house..well surely I would not take that chance of them being accused of anything..now don't get me wrong..I so understand her position..but..so must mine be understood..so I told her I prefer not to babysit..that my plate was full enough with my kids...even though she gave me this pity..don't know what I'm going to do thing..I stood strong with my decision..I did however help out by picking her up at school in the afternoon and dropping her off to the grandmother....

I was really glad she got a job...for it gave me a break from her...but..it didn't stop her..she started with the calling and texting...Im'ing on the computer..always having to know where I am...her head fills with nonsense..of objects moving..ghost warning her..and who she thinks the target is..you guest it..ME!!!!...Even though I told her I don't believe in that..and that I put my faith in God..it just seems to go in one ear and out the other..One day I just didn't feel like hearing all her negative so I didn't answer...so after her trying a few times..she called one last time so worried saying that she had just gotten a call from the hospital..in which no one said anything for a moment and then hung up...so she just knew it was me..OMG!!!..I was in shock that she would do this..So ..When I called her back..I couldn't help myself..I told her that I didn't believe her...I told her ..now comon..why in the hell would I call you from the hospital and not say anything...DUH!!!..Such foolish games..

Then she has started with buying me things...cards..magnets..etc..I know friends do that sometimes..but it has gotten to the point I am feeling really uncomfortable about it...and I told her to stop..but again not listening to me..

The most recent fiscal...about a week ago..we signed up our kids for a summer camp..her worry was working pass the time they got out..which I told her not to worry that I would be picking up mine so I could do the same with her's...I should have known and should have made it clear but we had this conversation already..but still she misunderstood..she took it as I would take care of her daughter the 3 to 4 hours afterwards till she got off work..and when I realized it..I told her no..that it was just as we did during the school time..drop off to her mom.. Well..she went into this insane pity-me thing..oh now the lil girl couldn't go..and this and that..and before I knew it she was saying that she almost past out when she went take a smoke break..now this was after I told her now..crying and just going on..I was in complete shock..that she was trying to outright manipulate me like this..Unbelievable!!!....it went from a simple conversation of a misunderstanding...to the most unbelievable things..I could write it all down..but jeepers...I'll end up writing 3 days of blog..lol lol..I finally just told her...to stop with the damn pity-me bit....that she is not the only one who suffers..everyone suffers in their lives..That she has to take control of herself and deal with things..and I finally just said to her that I know how her mom is about the lil girl..and that I would not have the lil girl here without her..Finally..the conversation stopped..I was exhausted...

Now..morning arrives..my phone rings at 7am..omg..it's her..I answer...and there she is all happy and singing to me wake up sunshine and this and that..I looked at my hubby with a look of disbelief..She was wanting me to go meet her after I dropped off my lil guy at school..and I was like..this person is sick...she knew very well that it was the day the kids are having a fun day picnic and such..and that I was going to be there all day with him..and it was the reason I wasn't going with her to the doctor..so I told her duh..I'm not leaving the school..and she said oh..I forgot..At that moment I made a decision..this person disregards everything I say..and she is trying to drain me ..and I will not allow this..there is a point when helping someone and being pulled down by them..has to be determined..and stopped...

There has been so many good changes in me lately..in my family..and I know the evil one doesn't like it...well that's just tough..my heart will still be there for someone who needs me...but I will not let someone who doesn't want to change..who wants to continue in self-destruction bring me down with them..

Wow...!!!!!..that felt good..I've been wanting to write..just couldn't put my fingers to it..but I'm glad I did..got it out..whew...But you know..even with all the drama with the so call friend...I've got some really good things to say also..but..I've got to run and pay some bills..and besides, this blog is long enough...I'll be back..to fill in all the wonderful things going on...

Keep smiling..for God surely does provide all that we need..