First off..well, can I say that I'm proud of myself??..lol..well..I don't care..I am so proud of myself right now...Why??..well..my 15 yr old went to cooking some fries..and in his rush to get back to his game against his older brother..he turn on the top burner instead of the oven...and made crisp out of one of my burner covers.."Oh yea..everything ok.".and he came to tell me..with some uncertainty..but..I went to ck it out..made sure all was ok..and I didn't get all angry..of course I question how it happened..but without all the anger ...and I got the details...the whole thing is...I didn't go off the handle like I used to..and to me the big deal is..not only did I not go off the handle on the outside..I didn't feel it on the inside either...now that is a Big Big deal for me...many times I control the outer anger..but was still so angry inside..But, nada...Smiling Big.....
Another big thing for me is this time of year... for many years around this time..I go into a real sad mood...more like a punish myself mood..I find some excuse to hide away..most times I get sick and it last for over the month..I know it's not real sickness, but yet, it becomes real, and I know it, but yet, I couldn't make it stop...Not until this year..it wasn't like I got up and did something or said it was going to stop..no..it, has been a healing inside of me...a beginning of forgiveness of myself..of accepting God's forgiveness and healing...I don't fool myself into thinking it's all poof gone..but..for the first time in I don't know how many years...I didn't hide away as before...I didn't get so sad that I was physically sick...
And..
For the first time, I actually welcomed mother's day...I had the most wonderful day...and it didn't consist of fancy gifts ...it was a wonderful breakfast prepared by my 15 yr old..and a beautifully made card by my 7 yr old..gorgeous flowers from hubby.. waiting for me when I arrived home from church...I sat there, and I just cried...big old happy tears rolled down my face...I told my boys this was the best mother's day ever in my life..and they had given it to me.....
Oh don't get me wrong..I've had a couple of days that were not so good..about a week ago..I had an attack of my neck and head...the pain was so unbearable..my Mom helped me by taking me to the doctor..that is how bad it was..turns out it was a muscle spasm caused from shoulder..which didn't hurt at all..but surely affected my neck and head..Guess too much computer...lol..but I tell you what, it hurt so bad, I was in tears over that too..but I am on some meds from the doc....a whole month I have to take the meds..and believe you..me..I am taking them...Smile..
Boy do I have a lot to say today huh..but..I finally put my fingers to typing it out..I've been on the puter..but just not in the writing mood..but today it seems I am ...Lol...
Well, I'm not finish yet..lol..I have one more thing I have to share...and it is my morning with the Lord...
This past Friday, after dropping off my son to school...I decided to take myself a ride...I drove past the place I was raised...and just drove past country areas..just so beautiful..I drove slowly, and even stopped at certain areas to just enjoy the beauty...It's amazing what we all over look because of the rush of our lives...such simple things..are so great in beauty and peace...I'm sure if someone passed by me..they thought me nuts..for I surely was talking with my Lord, in appreciating of what he has given to me...in my life and in this world for all...
I told my friend that I took myself about a hour or so drive in the morning, and she said she was so sorry, that I had to be alone...I chuckled..and I told her..."I wasn't alone...God came along...and we had a wonderful time together..he gave me peace..."....Smile..I think she understood it..but yet..I think she thought I was coo coo..lol...but no matter...I have that peace still at this moment..and I so love it...
Ok ok..I'm closing this post finally...but ..sharing a few photos from my morning with the Lord...Take care all..and choose to smile with all your heart....God Bless...
I love it when he shines thru...
I captured a farmer doing his morning checks of the crawfish traps..
God's Beauty...
Sitting as the train passes by...someone's work of art...
In my life..I've only found one...and I decided to look in the place I found my first one..and there I found another..How awesome is that...
I don't so much believe in the luck of the clover..but because of the meaning of it to us..I believe God gave it to me
as a way of saying you will be ok..
Have a great rest of the week!
There has been so much ignoring the beauty in my life...that I've finally taken that time back...just as you said, we choose..and that is what I've been doing with so many things lately...
Thank you again Bella..and I wish you a great week also...
Smiles to you..
I love ya
you wrote, "I told my friend that I took myself about a hour or so drive in the morning, and she said she was so sorry, that I had to be alone...I chuckled..and I told her..."I wasn't alone...God came along...and we had a wonderful time together..he gave me peace..."....Smile..I think she understood it..:
I have been writing about friendship with God over at one of my blogs - I think you beautifully captured my idea -
I am glad you had a happy Mother's day - you deserved it
ron
Hope you are having a wonderful day...
Smiles
Wishing you a great day...!!!
Have a wonderful day my friend...
I am still praying for...and I still admire you for taking on this challenge...
Smiles to you Granny...keep the faith..
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So sweet ... I couldn't help mentioning you in my post today!
Hugggggggggggggggggz,
Taylor
I love the pictures and your heart - and remember -"we each make our own luck" -
You kids are luck to have you -
I am glad you are doing well and that God is giving you healing. Your time alone with him on your ride sounds wonderful. A conversation with God is always good. It does bring peace. I do the same thing when driving to work each morning. I love looking around at the beauty of the world around me too that goes unnoticed by so many.
By the way I love Natasha's new song. Pocketful of Sunshine is great!
Bear Hugs!
PolarB ;)
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Hope you are enjoying a long weekend!
Hugggggggggggz,
Taylor
Just think of you with lots of love and respect - Have a wonderful weekend -
And thanks for the beautiful pictures too!
I know I am like so late with these replys...so forgive me..
Take care and keep smiling
Have a great day ...Smiles
Thank you Lookin
Love ya...
There are still some challenging days with my son...but...things have improved so greatly ....I don't expect what took a few years to harden the heart to be gone in a matter of months ..but ..the Lord surely has been working wonders with us..and I do so enjoy my alone time with the Lord...and the beauty he gives us...So funny..I told my hubby just a few days ago..that either I'm soon going to die..or truly getting old...for I am just seeing so much in such a different light lately....Smiles..either way....I am so loving it...!!!..
Oh yes..and the song..Pocketful of Sunshine is awesome!!..makes me feel all giggle inside...Lol...Smiles..
Have a great day....
Smiles to ya...
You have a great day also...
Smiles
Have a great day and God Bless
Thank you Lookin...and I hope you are having a great week..and that things are moving along in the most perfect way...Smiles...
I love ya..and God Bless you always...
Smiles and Love
I'm glad you enjoyed my pics...thank you ..and God bless you....have a great week...