June made a comment to me..saying I should tell of what God has done in my life..so it got me to thinking...maybe along with some of the crazy feeling I have lately, I should add in there something good that has happened..
Well, this one couldn't have come to mind at a better time..smile..the other day someone showed me a pic of a four leaf clover and asked me how many have I found??...well, it made me remember....
The story goes with our loosing our mobile home in hurricane Lily..took a while to get back to life, which that story I'll tell another time..smile..but anyways, we did get a new one, a bigger and much nicer one, but now there was a fear in me that was never there before. Well this one morning, while sitting out on the back step letting the dog do his business, I looked down, and saw what looked to be a four leaf clover, I thought, no way, there is just no way I'm seeing this, so I kept my eyes focused on it as not to loose sight of it, and went down the steps to check it out..and to my surprise it was, yes indeed it was a "Four Leaf Clover", I was in such awe, I've seen them before, but never have I found one, and not even looking for it. I carefully picked it as to show it to my family. I still have it, but, for the life of me I don't know exactly where I packed it up..lol..but I will find it to show.
I know in reality lucky charms are not so, but, being human and hearing the old wise tales of them, well, it gave me a sense of comfort. I felt at that moment that God knew I was very uneasy of all that had happened and this was his way of saying, it will be ok...He knew by allowing me to see that clover I would know his message. And I think by my friend sending me that pic of the clover he found, was God's way of reminding me of that message again...Thank You Lord...
There's so much going on in my head, no wonder it rattles today. Trying to differentiate the important from the foolishness. Feels like it's going to explode!! So if you get lost, don't feel alone cause I don't even know and I'm the one writing it.
It's so crazy, yesterday was so wonderful, spent the day with Mom at a step uncle's house. Just talking of their childhood. Some of the things make you realize how good you have it today. But, then why when I come to my own home I feel so overwhelmed. Being out away from here I feel so alive, but here in my own home a place that I'm supposed to feel safe, I feel so trapped!!! I look around and see all that needs to be done, and my insides start to shake..so procrastinating I do.
The day before I took a drive to the town over and on the drive my heart was so full, I talked with God and cried with love and thanks. Then 2 days later I'm feeling overwhelmed and full of mistrust. I've got to fight this, I'm telling you evil one leave me alone, stop trying to take away what's good in me. My heart is good, my heart has smiles in it, take your workers of evil and go elsewhere!!!!
Is it that easy??? I don't know but I keep trying....God is here, so why is it so hard to let him shine in me....Like in the story of the seeds that fall on different parts of the ground...I forget which one it is, but, I know I'm sorta like the one that starts to grow and shine for a moment, and in hard times I fall...Why do I allow other's lies and deceit to be stronger than my faith and my love.?? Why do I allow non-important things to consume me away from what is good??
I see it written out before my eyes, the questions, and now I must answer them, and I know the answers, I just have to let them be stronger than the questions....
Beginning: What a strong and intimidating word. How does one begin when it has already begun?
I left looking for another place to write..I went as far as setting up the blog..name and all..but not one single word could I type..it sits there waiting for me to bring it alive...but how can I..when I began a journey here..Reasons are not of any wrong doing to me here...on the contrary..
When I first began I was a different person, but, through these past few years I've grown so much..and it's because of so many of you..From poetry, rhymes, losses, hates, religion, advice, and yes even the bickering, but within it all, I've seen one common factor that brings us all together whether anyone wants to admit it..and it is Love!!!
When I find myself in times of trouble Mother Mary comes to me Speaking words of wisdom, let it be And in my hour of darkness She is standing right in front of me Speaking words of wisdom, let it be Let it be, let it be Let it be, let it be Whisper words of wisdom, let it be
And when the broken hearted people Living in this world agree There will be an answer, let it be For though they may be parted There is still a chance that they will see There will be an answer, let it be Let it be, let it be Yeah, there will be an answer, let it be Let it be, let it be Let it be, let it be Whisper words of wisdom, let it be
Let it be, let it be Let it be, yeah, let it be Whisper words of wisdom, let it be
And when the night is cloudy There is still a light that shines on me Shine on until tomorrow, let it be I wake up to the sound of music Mother Mary comes to me Speaking words of wisdom, let it be
Let it be, let it be Let it be, yeah, let it be There will be an answer, let it be Let it be, let it be Let it be, yeah, let it be Whisper words of wisdom, let it be
Words are flowing out like endless rain into a paper cup, They slither while they pass they slip away across the universe. Pools of sorrow, waves of joy are drifting through my open mind, Possessing and caressing me. Jai guru deva om.
Nothing's gonna change my world, Nothing's gonna change my world, Nothing's gonna change my world, Nothing's gonna change my world.
Images of broken light which dance before me like a million eyes, and call me on and on across the universe. Thoughts meander like a restless wind inside a letter box, They stumble blindly as they make their way across the universe. Jai guru deva om.
Nothing's gonna change my world, Nothing's gonna change my world, Nothing's gonna change my world, Nothing's gonna change my world.
Sounds of laughter shades of love are ringing through my open mind, Inciting and inviting me. Limitless undying love which shines around me like a million suns, It calls me on and on across the universe. Jai guru deva om.
Nothing's gonna change my world (8X)
Jai guru deva, Jai guru deva, Jai guru deva, Jai guru deva...
Many Blogstream members are there
already! Quotes from members: "It's like blog lite!" -- "I like the instant
gratification!" -- "Stop spectating, get in the game!"
If you have not joined in, you are really missing out!
