What in the world am I feeling at this moment?? Who really knows...LOL...I think I may be one of those people who are just a walkin on the street just a talkin to themselves...never on the same subject, never knowing what they want...LOL...one moment you happy one moment you are angry and the next your are just a cryin....I know most can relate...
No, No, I am not angry, nor cryin, I am just a thinkin...Read a few blogs and so can relate to them...
I am late with getting the younger son ready for bed, I just finished up about 20 min ago with the bath and then the prayers...Tonite the 14 year old came in and joined in on the prayer...It is a child's prayer simple but yet enough to learn about God.. I sorta changed some words because I really don't think a 5 year old really wants to hear about if I should die....This is how we say the prayer:
"Now I lay me down to sleep I pray the Lord my soul to keep and for the Angels to watch over me all nite long...."
Then of course we go on to say God bless ??????? and let me tell you he has it down..If he makes a mistake and say the wrong name in the wrong order he has to start over, lol...
Now with the 14 year old, yesterday and today went pretty smoothly..I got some good advice from some of my fellow bloggers..which I will surely put to use....one such word of wisdom was a reminder that he too is a child and still needs caring for..I think I forget that at times...not meaning too but it does happen...another word of wisdom was to let him tell me how he feels about things and for me to let him know how proud I am of him and not to let him think that he can never measure up, that he is good enough, and that I appreciate him for all that he does... I know all these things but tend to forget with the hurrying life situations and it is good to be reminded of them...I really love this kid as do I love all my boys..
Sometimes I am afraid of how much I love them, that it will do more harm than good..That God may not like me loving them too much, for at times I tend to put them before him and I know that he God must be first then family....
Anyways, like I said I am like that person walking on the street jumping from one subject to the next, lol lol...
I got to chat with my eldest son online today, it was fun, we clowned around and then later he called me on the phone...He is coming home on Friday because we have an important football game happening and the whole town is just on edge about it....This little town really needs this win, they need their morals boosted so much the kids that is, oh heck us adult too, lol....anyway, he told me that he would like to BBQ on Saturday, if I would get some things for him to do this..I was surprised at this...He told me he really would like to put to use some of the things he is learning at school...You see, I don't know if I ever said before, but my son is going to college to become a Chef....
So, I told him that would be great, I would get some things for him to prepare and to cook...shoots, it is nice to have someone else do the cooking, lol...And I must say he does a good job at it too...Not to brag...LOL..
Here I go a walkin and a talkin on another subject, lol
Hubby and I seem to be getting along better also...little by little we are getting on the same page...Not the full page but a beginning...I am reaching out to him for help with the kids especially the 14 year old..I don't like always being the bad guy not that I want him to be the bad guy, but, when it is all on your back you tend to turn out bad...you see I really don't trust my husband too much, it's not about fooling around, it is just plain old trust in many things of our lives..There are more times than not that he has been unreliable...
It is hard to believe that we actually stayed married now for 21 years....LOl...Don't get me wrong, I really fell in love with this man years ago...and I know it is still there but buried deep....I think I will save that one for another blog, lol lol.....
OK, here I go a walkin again, lol lol...Just had to say that hubby's mouth is doing better and younger son is doing much better also...I though all of sudden tonite while giving my son a bath really got weak as though I had the flu or just really worn out....That is prob. what it is...WORN OUT.....
Well, I guess I will call it quits for now, because I could run on and on and on and on....LOL LOL but, the page may not hold it...lol lol....Like a fellow blogger said..this is a great reminder for me in the future to come back and see how much things change and not to make the same mistakes....I really liked what she said so I just had to drop it in there....
Good nite or Good Morning and God Bless Ya
SammyJo
