Yeap...I'm alive and well...I survived the weekend...I survived that wedding....LOL..
I almost didn't go..I was looking for an excuse not to go...But then my eldest called me just to make sure the plans..and he told me that he was excited about us going...We haven't seen him in almost a month..and he missed us as much as we missed him...So..you know I couldn't make up any excuses not to go...
I knew we were going to sleep at her apt she has on campus..his dorm was too small and they charge $10 a person to sleep over..She was going to give her bed to hubby and I..but..like Hell No..I was not going to sleep in that bed..Shit too..Now remember she still didn't know I knew yet about her and my son..Sleeping on the air mattress was just fine for me..it was hard enough to be there as it was..
Our 2hour trip went really well...on the way we stopped at a store for drinks and when hubby came out..he had bought me a cute little bear holding a rose..it plays music and lights up...I just loved it...
We finally arrived at the school..I could tell my son was nervous at how I might act..he came and just gave me a big hug..and let me tell you I surely gave it right back...I love him very much...no matter what...The girl was not there..she was getting ready for the wedding..it was her dad getting remarried so she was in the wedding..I was glad she wasn't there..gave time to be with son...
The wedding was at a small Catholic country church...it was sweet...we have a big church..not as big as they can be..but one of the bigger ones...well..because of the size hubby and I and youngest sat in one pew and the eldest sat in front of us and the middle son sat right behind us with a group of young girls who seem to be flirting with him...lol..but of course..he is a doll...if I may say so....
Now remember...this is her family..her ppl...so anything I may say around them prob would be sent back to her...lol..but..did I SammyJo care...lol..NOPE...But I was good...I only made a few remarks...just the truth...like wow...I knew she was short and her mom is too..but omg..her dad was like really short....so I told my son...if you marry that girl all your boys will be short..and you know you don't like that...lol....Please..Please..I don't mean to offend anyone by what I said..I truly don't have anything against shorter ppl..as a matter of fact..I always felt I was too tall as a woman...but ...I do believe guys should be tall...I just wanna to make a sassy remark...lol...
But..it was all in fun with my son...no one really heard me...I wasn't that rude to be loud...lol...even though I really wanted to..lol...After the wedding..outside..my son pointed out his girlfriends new step mom's dad to me..which he was like standing right there in front of us..and just glaring at us...so..of course I said..we are eldest parents..he never said a word just stared at us...so I said this is eldest....and he with a really smart attitude said yea..I know eldest...Well..that surely made old SammyJo...wanna tell him where to go...as a matter of fact...I did say something like well then he can kiss my ???...I sure hope he heard me...I know..I know..not right..but man..he was really rude...I have been raised to where when you meet someone for the first time..you smile or at least put on an act of niceness....lol....
But of course..he is really of no importance to us....At the reception..there were many ppl..Not one of them made conversation with us..and I am not kidding...well one lady at the table we were sitting at actually said something to us..because she over heard us talking about the bride and groom...we couldn't understand how they could get married in the church if he was divorced...I don't think she was family..so she agreed with us on that point...we later found out the answer to our question...
I did introduce myself and hubby to the girlfriends dad...I had already met the step mom before..but it was his wedding day..so duh couldn't really get to know him..lol..but..let me tell you..the step mom..is like so stupid..so sneaky...at one point we were outside smoking..yeah...I smoke..I know I shouldn't but I do..anyway..she came running outside...saying..hey..I heard we are going to be grandparents.....OMG...such a wrong thing to come and joke with me about!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!...She didn't realize that I knew...the little secrete.....she knew that I worried about it before..and she was trying to play..I assume..she said we don't have to worry about them..they are good kids...Well....LO and BEHOLD...I knew....and I felt as though she was laughing in my face thinking I didn't know...Yeah..maybe some will say oh SammyJo..you are misreading it..but..I am good at reading ppl....so..you know I had to let her know that I knew..not right out and said it..but I looked at her and said yeah right...it is done...I know the truth..and OMG...she went totally stupid on me...lol..a 42 year old woman acting like a kid..she said..oh..I don't know what you are talking about..I don't know nothing..I couldn't help but call her a liar..I said oh yeah you do...the girl told you..yes you do know..and she looked so pale lol lol lol....Hey..Lookin that was a good feeling..did that without being ugly...got my point across...lol.lol.....
Sorry ya'll this is long..but it has been one hell of a ride this passing week...Well anyway..the wedding continued..and of course no one made any effort to talk to us..The girlfriend is the most unhappy person I've ever met..At one point I was in the rest room..and when I came out the girlfriend was coming in..she just looked at me..well of course being the right thing to do..I made an effort to say something like I couldn't hold it anylonger..and you know that little witch never said a word to me..not one word..not hello..nothing..not even a laugh...OHHHHHH..I can't stand her....But..I still didn't act ugly...
After the wedding..we all headed back to her apt..which we all rode together in my truck..By then she knew that I knew about her and my son doing the deed...the step mom had went met her and told her that she thinks I know about it..and she asked my son..which he confirmed it with her..He told me about it...Well to give you another example of how ugly she is in her heart...she wasn't talking much...but when I told my son..that I wanted him to hear the song we played at my aunt's funeral the one I did the signing to..well do you know that little witch...started talking to him right when the song started and didn't stop talking to him till the song ended...This is not in my head...I am reading her right...Even my husband noticed that.....Well that just started me up..so..of course I started making my little smirks here and there..
I did handle myself really good though..because I really wanted to bust loose and let it all out what I felt about it all..not just the fact she lied about things..but also how she acts towards me...After a nite of sleep..we all headed to where my son works part time and ate lunch...I am truly a person who likes to do for others..i really do..but..when they put that girls order of food on my bill..i was so infuriated...and more so because I didn't say a word about it..no the price was not the problem..it was just the situation..but..I begged God to forgive me for it...
Finally..it was time to go...my son had to go to work..so we were all outside giving our hugs and kisses good-bye...I usually make an effort to hug her bye even though she seems to gringe at it..but I try..well this time I didn't..NO..I was not going to put myself out no more...If you don't like me then it is your lost now...I did however finally look at her and him..more her..and I did ask...You are still on your birth control pills right??..she nodded a yea..and I said please stay on them..don't get pregnant...I know..that was prob the wrong thing to do..because she will do the opposite just to show me..but I guess it was my way of finally saying YES..I know!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Then hubby I assume trying to make it feel less uncomfortable..told her..when eldest son comes home come visit with him...Well that was the wrong thing for him to say...Not good Hubby..not at this moment in time..Well I didn't bite my tongue this time..I well said..oh no...next week when son comes home..do not come with him..I just want him to come this time....I don't want any extra company...she got the point...
Yes..I am very disappointed and very hurt at my son not waiting...but..I think it hurts more because I know this girl is not good for him...Most girls...will try to put forth an effort to get along with the mother especially when she knows how close the son and mother are...but I do believe instead of her sharing that..she is jealous of it...I would be more than happy to share the love with her..It would be wonderful to have a girl around..but..she doesn't want that...and I am not going to bow down anymore...I am so tired of it...and I will not just let go of my son either...
