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Thursday August 28, 2008

Yeah still around...

Well ...I've been missing in action lately huh......My 7 yr old has discovered web pets...which means using my computer...But I tell ya..it is really cute them little things..I've joined in with him playing the games and setting up the little houses and such...it's just too cute.....and then my 16 yr old introduced me to rock band..Yikes...wouldn't leave me alone till I tried it...and wow..it's something else...keeping up with them notes ...but on easy I don't do to bad...but yet not that great either...

So along with these things..and getting into the school routine..has me pooped..not much into really writing just checking in..so please don't feel as though I've abandoned anyone...

My mind has been in a strange place these days..moods are very strange...and now added to it..once again another darn hurricane brewing out...Gustva I think is how you spell it...and this one seems to be heading our way...still uncertain ...but the path shows some weather for us for sure...if it turns..it heads to Miss. which is not good either for my sister lives there...so my fear is greater than the last...I have this sickening feeling in my stomach...I feel numb..my faith is at a very low right now...I just don't know why..I guess it's just one of those low points and I will pass this hump too..it's just not such a good way to be at this time...for I just don't think I could deal with what I dealt with 5 yrs ago...I will break...

I'm sorry to be on the down side..I know this is not me..but...I had to let you know that I am still around and have not forgotten not a one of you....well ok ..guess I'll close for now and see what's going on with you...Smiles ...

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Wednesday August 13, 2008

School = Quiet

It's so quiet in here...I'm wondering, do I like it or not...hubby is sleeping and so are the dogs...Yea...today is the first day back to school...

Even though a little concern about where the new class was...my lil one didn't seem to mind at all going back...Sitting in his new chair a familiar face of a friend sat right beside him..and he just lite up...I know this helps him and me...I remember his first days in pre-k..he would never look back at us..and at first I felt hurt...but as it went on..and I noticed even today..when it's time for us to leave..he doesn't look back at us ...I've come to realize this is his way of coping..no seeing us walk away ...no fear...funny how even at 4 yrs old they learn how to deal...and now he is 7 yrs old and in 2nd grade...times flies so quickly..As we left...a young mother I know had big tears rolling down her face...her son was fine with going to school...it was her taking it so hard...he may be in 2nd grade also..but he is her first...when I saw her tears...I remembered so well from my first and on ...and I told her I understood and it was ok to cry...I couldn't say it will be ok in time...for it surely took me a long time..hell..when my first started college you should have seen me cry like a baby..and that was only 2 yrs ago...lol..so instead I asked who the teacher was and it so happen we have the same...that eased her a little for our sons know each other from kindergarten and I told her that we would have fun together with this school year...You know...I am so proud of myself for not crying this time..and for not hanging around for ever..Oh don't get me wrong..my mind does wonder into thinking of how things are going ...and if he is scared..but all in all..I did pretty good...

Now..do I ever remember my 16 yr old's first years...wow..he was one who didn't want to go at all...every morning for the whole school year...he would cry as we arrived at school...it wasn't like some, where they throw a tantrum and scream ..no..it was very subtle..but a sad face and tears would come as we got closer to school..the tears finally stopped when he reached middle school, grade 6...oh he still didn't care for school...to him it was a waste of his time..he felt they should just give the work to them and then let them go home...haha..but joining band helped a lot..and it made his middle school years go by real smooth...So now going into 10th grade his second year of high school, he seems pretty much ok with it...the only problem this morning was electric had gone out with the storm we had during the early morning...so clock was a blinking..and for some reason my darn hubby didn't wake me close to 6 like I wanted...so when I opened my eyes it was almost 6:30..and yes hubby was awake..for he works the night shift and is home close to that time..so..because of the time difference in their schools..and the distance...it put my hubby bringing him to school without me..for I had to finish up with the youngest..I have never ...ever missed any of my boys first day of school no matter the grade...and..this really and truly broke my heart!!!!...Even though..he said it was ok...a mother knows her child...just something in the eyes...you know..and he is so much like me..so I really know...I know he is ok and this will not scar him for life...well I hope not...smile..it's just never having done this with the others and now it happening to him..really upsets me..So..hubby is on my list at the moment...lol lol..

Ok ok..enough..I'm only upsetting myself...even with the mishap...everything still went ok...and soon it will be time to go and get my guys...OH OH...did I tell ya the outcome of my sewing ....well..turns out even the friends mom couldn't sew it without it gathering up..thinking the material is too thick for the needle or the stitch needs to be looser..we closed for the night..I decided to bring them to a cleaner to be fixed...but as I thought about it..I only gave a couple of pairs..and decided to give it a try again last night with the others...Well!!!!!..guess what....I got it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Yeap yeap yeap...maybe not the most perfect line but pretty close and no gathering....I just loosen the stitch on the machine...and also the hem I was trying to make was too large so it made the material thick..so a smaller one I made and yes sir-re it worked...I've never been so excited...now lets just hope I can do it again....smile..

HAHAHA...wow..a long post huh..ok ..I'm closing now...Have a great day all!!!!

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Monday August 11, 2008

Sometimes Simple is Best...

Man...I don't feel the write in me for a while and now..I am here posting 2 to 3 times in a week...lol..

Couldn't help myself...just some thoughts on something read and it made me remember

...I remember years back this one person would use these big old words to try and make herself look smarter.."I guess"..or make others feel stupid..I recall once all sitting at a sonic drive inn...and something was wrong with her drink or what ever it was she had..and she buzzed the gal inside..and instead of just saying what was the problem..she totally went into this word challenge..The girl was like so lost..and I'm telling you this went on for a moment longer than it should have..such a simple thing to just say hey..this is not what I ordered..could you please bring me such and such...I guess she thought it made her look good..but..the rest of us just looked at each other in awe..like what the heck...

Well..something similar of another...speaking of a word argument with another..how proud this person was to be able to out word the other with words surely not understood by the other person..thinking she had the upper hand over the other...But I can't help but wonder..Who was the real fool....My thoughts are...what good is it to spit out words that are not understood..if you truly want to make an impact good or bad..surely you want it to be understood..

Oh don't get me wrong..I am very intrigued by ppl with words..I learn so much from those who truly know what the words are about and use them for teaching and learning..And if there's a word I don't understand..well be ready to explain for I will ask if I can't find it myself...Smile..But those who use the words to go over your head...or say things like.."Oh I'm sorry..you probably don't understand what I'm talking about"..Those are the ones boosting their own egos...and the ones like this that I've encountered are usually truly empty and ignorant to all other things..and are so unhappy..

Sometimes simple is better..sometimes simple makes you the bigger winner...Smile...

Alrighty..enough of my thinking outloud..Have a good one my friends....

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Sunday August 10, 2008

Tantrum

ARRRGGGGG!!!!!!!!...stomping feet...yelling!!!!....

I never been so darn mad at myself..so utterly disgusted with myself!!!AAAAAAHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!....WHEW!!!!!!!!!!!!!...that felt so Darn Good!!!!!!!!!!...wait..a little more...ARGGGGGGGG....STOMP STOMP STOMP!!!!!!!!!!! Yelling AAAAHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!...OK..I think I got it out there for a moment lol lol...

Something so darn simple...and I just can't get it....what the heck am I talking about...well..remember that new sewing machine...Yea..that one...to try and save a lil dough...make a stupid lil hem on some pants...well ...this old chick is no seamstress!!..even for a darn lil hem...Of so many things that I can do...and I mean some big things too..and to sew a darn lil hem...to keep it straight..NOOOO...not me...I tried for hours..and let me tell ya..it was the hardest thing for me to finally accept defeat with it...I finally called my friend's mom who has the same machine as I do..and ask if she would do the pants for me..and she said yes of course..but I already knew that.....I just wanted to take care of my own business...darn it!!!...but..I will surely be there to see what the heck I was doing wrong..I know I know...I shouldn't let this get to me so..

Especially since the day started off so wonderful...again I got my whole family to get up and come to church with me early instead of later ...Even though I can't sit with them during the mass...because of my interpreting...but it feels so good seeing them sitting out there together...going together and leaving together as a family...Smile...When I get them up early with me...the day tends to go really well..even if means doing some yard work..or laying around watching a movie...it's done together...not one or more sleeping all day...

This is how it's been the last few weeks...my hubby usually works ot ..which means working Saturdays...but it was getting the best of him..I told him..to stop working so many extras...stay home with us..our relationship is not the best ..but..if we don't ever spend any time together even if only simple things..then how are we to ever mend it...so..it is done...not so many Saturdays for while...Smile...

Well...I think I feel a lil better now...after that lil rant..and then calm down talk...smile...Now I've got to get my movies back to the store...and then maybe another bubble bath tonight..Yea..I think that will be just the deal.....

Ok then...sorry bout the yelling...Hope you all are having a great day..or evening now ...Smiles..

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Saturday August 9, 2008

Good over Bad is Alive

So yes indeed...the scare has come and gone...Whew..Thank my Lord all was good...no damages ...no hurts..and I thank all who came by and who kept me and mine..and all...in their prayers....Smiles...

Now lets see..what's been going on here since....well...finished up with the biggest part of school shopping...and school starts next week..wow..where has the summer vacation gone...but I'm sorta glad it is starting..not that I want to push off the kids..but to have some routine back...in the beginning we kept busy and all..but then of course laziness set in..hahah...up way to late and sleeping late...not a good thing...well..lol lol...but it's time to have something force my butt out ...

Oh and get this..I went and bought myself a sewing machine...yea..and let me tell ya..that is a wondrous thing for me..hahah..for sewing and me not a perfect match at all!!!..hahaha..but..my youngest..well..his body has not figured out yet that he is part of a tall family lol...so..to get them pants hem would cost as much if not more than the pants themselves ..sooooo...ole mom decided to try it out...I am so proud of myself..thru the whining and crying over how to thread the darn thing...I finally did it...and on my own ...wooohoo!!!!...hahaha..so now..on to actually doing the hem...so wish me luck...I will need it....lol lol..

Oh did I tell of my trip to the Casino ??...well...since it was our 23 rd anniversary we decided to go have a lil fun...and fun we had..no winnings of course..but let me tell ya..I tried black jack for the first time and loved it...won a few..but..gave it all back...and I tried a few mixed drinks that I've never had before...like a martini...Yikes...did ya know there's only strong stuff in there lol..but the olives oh man loved them...haha..what I love most is that them drinks are FREE!!!...as long as you are sitting there playing a few...oh yea...lol..I'm so proud...we may not have won..but we stayed there all day and still only gave them about $50..not bad huh...and then we ate..omg..there too I tried something different ...not my usual stuff...I ate some stuff red fish I think it is called...OOOO....it was to die for....the plate was filled up...had to pack it up and bring it home ....Don't I sound sad...prob all these things many have done many a times...and here I am at 44 doing it for the first time lol..oh now don't get me wrong..I've been to the casino before..but just never tried different things like this time...I just decided to have a blast..and that we did...

Do I sound happy....well..that's because I am at the moment...and I'm doing absolutely nothing ....lol...just trying to keep the good over the bad alive...and today it's working...Thank you Lord for that....

Well enough of jabbering on...I wish you all a great weekend..and God Bless all...

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